Ep. 32 Getting Back to You: The Art of Remembering Your Spark (Part 2.)

Part 2.

Welcome to Charlie’s Toolbox. The place to learn more about you. I am your host Charlie Taylor. Last week I had a break week and this week I am back with part 2. I am still trying to figure out the schedule. Should it be every other week or 3 weeks on one week off? Would love some feedback so shoot me a DM on IG, twitter, or FB, @Charliestoolbox or reach out to me @ charliestoolbox.com

Today we are going to have a longer format that will be the new setup for future episodes. The format will consist of three parts:

· Part I. A short segment about what’s going on in my world.

· Part II. Topics in the world that are peaking my interest or are worthy of discussion.

· Finally, Part III we will discuss the main topic in great detail and end with a summary of the lesson.

So, let’s get started….Some things that have been going on with me. I am in the final stretch of school. I’ve been in school on and off since 2008 and I am happy to be done with it. As far as learning goes, it will no longer be formal. If I want to learn something new off to YouTube I go!

Beyond that, I’ve been really feeling myself and I know it is because I am present. It’s a wild concept because I hate hearing stuff like this because it sounds cheesy, but I am saying this because now that I am present I see how colorful my life is.

I have a super-rich and fulfilling life. I go to dinner and have 3-hour long conversations with people I love. I go to free art shows just to see how people are currently expressing themselves. I people-watch on my stoop. I walk my dog. I visit people I love and we become family. I listen intently genuinely wanting to know more about people. I ride a scooter around Brooklyn with music and shades. I have friends who listen to me and randomly surprise me with gifts just because they saw it and knew I’d like it. I am well-loved and I love well. And If I stayed in my head like I’ve done most of my life, I would not see this. So, shout out to me for being present, and seeing how delicious I live. My advice to every one of you is to reach for it. Like just reach for a rich life that when you lay down you can smirk at the pleasure you receive every single day.

Along with feeling myself, I am really excited about this artist Doechii. I haven’t been inspired by an artist in a long time and she is lighting me up. I love when someone gets it, and she gets it. She’s forward-thinking and she knows her audience. So stream the song Persuasive and dig into her work.

This week I read this really great article in the cut called What my toddlers nom-noms taught me by Jessi Klein. And basically, this article starts off with an idea that Elizabeth Gilbert brought up in an episode with Oprah. Basically, she states that the hero’s journey, its archetype is often only attributed to men.

While women are relegated to waiting at home or never affording the journey at all. Basically, the article makes a declaration that motherhood is a part of the hero’s journey archetype. The battle that mothers have where they gather all of their strength to do something so impossible as keeping their children healthy and alive and keeping themselves, is in itself a hero’s journey.

And the reason I loved it so much is that it gave me even more compassion and empathy for my mother, which at times I struggled with. It helped me see this internal battle. It helped me see this young baby, who is my mother, gathering the strength and the knowledge she has to show up every day and mother me. It showed me the reserve of patience, kindness, and selflessness she exhibited. It showed me that mostly she showed us the top of the iceberg, and spared us the battle she had within herself as a new mother. It was a great article that gave me more compassion than I thought I had. ..

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Now back to this episode:

So, let’s pick up where we left off. Part. 1 we discussed the art of getting back to yourself. I asked you to acknowledge you are in a pandemic because that plays a role in your discontent or not feeling like you. I asked you to love your routine, but also make space for spontaneity. Sometimes routines can make your life feel dull. Finally, win small! Winning small feels like a jolt and sometimes you need that jolt to make you feel good. To feel like you!

Part 2. We will discuss your thoughts and your environment. There are particular ways they hinder you from feeling and being who you want to be. So, let’s start.

Sometimes you stop being yourself because you are creating stories about what other people are thinking and what they feel about you.

  • What I mean by that, is that most of your behavior is dictated by a story you tell yourself and not what makes you feel good or present. For example, you go to a party and no one is on the dance floor. You hear a song you like and you want to dance, but you don’t. Instead, you decide to wait until the dance floor is crowded before dancing and enjoying that. Why is that? I mean you want to dance, you liked the music, and you can dance. Why aren’t you doing what you want? The reason is of course anxiety, more specifically social anxiety. But behind that is the story you created about what everyone around you is thinking about you if you dance. You have not even danced yet, but you are already making yourself out to be the butt of random people’s jokes. How can you be yourself, when the voice of so many ghosts are dictating your moods and actions? How can you be yourself when you are busy interpreting someone’s actions/moods and determining your behavior based on them. That thinking is not only exhausting. It keeps you in a box that you might want to live outside of. It keeps you away from things like freedom, liberty, joy, and authenticity. So, when you are thinking and creating stories, you can either stop because it is your mind. You can stop, because you really don’t know what people are thinking. Or you can use your mind the same way with different results, and come up with stories that support your self-esteem or even delusion.

Part 2B. Don’t let your past control your capacity or capability

  • Do you ever dream? And then a voice comes and says how can you be that when you’ve done so much of (fill in the blank with shit that you are ashamed of). That voice not only sucks, but it is also wrong because first off, who said you had to be perfect to get, win, live, be, or do anything. That is quite literally a lie because those who received all that you want are just as flawed and human as you. Those rules that keep you imprisoned and stop you from taking steps can be released at any time. So, decide to continue to let them go.

Part 2B.